What's the song of the day? easy. Family business by Kanye West is by far the song of the day. for some reason i became kinda homesick, but not for things or places, my nostalgia mostly was derivative of old relationships. i don't really mind not seeing the people i grew up with on a daily basis, it's just knowing that if i wanted to see them, it would be very difficult, if not impossible to do so. it's a strong feeling of distance that happens i guess when you dedicate at least 9 months of your year in madison wisconsin. i miss being able to call up certain people and just being able to stop by and say hello or even have the chance of running into the somewhere. there is zero chance out here.

these non-capitalized sentiments lead me to my point that i want to make. for a while i thought that one of my biggest struggles was living in the past. i thought that whenever i wished something was the way it used to be that i was somehow acting within a safety blanket or in a wimpy manner. while i believe that to be true if someone is constantly nostalgic and woeful about their present condition, i'm not exactly sure if it is at all wrong to even have a constant remembering of where you came from. so here's my point...i think most of our lives are lived in the past anyway, so why should we fight the feeling of remembering it so much. almost everything we do in life is based off of past knowledge that we've acquired over the years. this is to say that whenever someone is weighing the outcomes of certain actions, they are really just digging into their past to decide whether or not they should actually do the action. this is of course assuming that all memory that has been made was in the past and that therefore by digging into it, one is living in the past in some sense of the word. if this model were true, then the only thing current in life would be the sensory experience. wow. i'm tired and i need to chill. much more on this later. i think my psych class has me on to something. hollaback.